I have had one of the most emotional rollercoasting, thought-provoking and humbling weeks this week - Two entrepreneurial award finals for my two businesses: 02 X Award Male Entrepreneur of the Year 2009 for www.geewee.tv & Man on a Mission Business Award 2009 for www.cultiv8solutions.com), three really good job offers and a head hunted request for my expertise!
For the past five years, i have been navigating myself through the scary but equally exciting world of Entreprenurism, yet it has only been in the last two years when i have begun to see the fruits of my labours. It is as if someone turned on a light, back in 2007, which instantly put all my sacrifices, blood, sweat and tears into perspective and allowed me to put myself into fifth gear.
Yet i still feel burdened...could it be the fear of success, fear of failure, realism on what i am really trying to achieve? Methinks, it is a bit of all of the above - being nominated for business awards is great but you still feel like a failure when you dont win, but at the same time, are proud that you even got there! Furthermore, being offered jobs that will solve all my troubles makes me wonder whether i should put my business owner dreams and ambitions, on the back burner for a while, particularly in the current economic climate.....
However, today i realised something...i realised that my journey has only just begun. Nothing happens without a reason, everything has its own season...Im in summer/autumn at the minute, in the sense that the highs and elated feelings of success must be balanced with the chills that constantly bring me back to reality.
Reality has forced me to asked myself one key question: Who am i?
My answer: As i look at where i have come from, to where i am going, I smile. My results to date have shown me that i am the type of person who thrives on being challenged and taking risks but is focused on daily results that create small but consistent impacts - this is what spurs me on...
Someone once asked me "if i see myself as a firework or a star?" and i remember that i had no answer to give them. If that person asked me again, i would say that i am a star that you cant see, but who is trying to outshine the fireworks always seem to grab everyone's attention.
Inside i shine brightly, but i fully accept that only time can decide whether or not others will see it.....
